順其自然

hihi!!
was feeling pretty blue even since wed nite. no it's thur nite. yup. receive some not so good news so was pretty blue bout it. woke up on sat morn thinkin i'm jus a step closer to mondae. pretty bllue e rest of e dae. woke up sun wif a better mind. improved tru e daes esp after rottin at home. probably jus miss my personal space, time and my home. was feeling pretty well yest nite after eating out wif my family. cracked lots of jokes till i got tiny bits of athsma. or might b e drink tat cos it.

hmm.todae woke up feeling pretty sian. totalli bounce back at 6pm. freaking happi. den jus now stilling downstair tokin to my parents bout my work and realise i can't rush things. jus make sure tat i stay out of their politics issues and let things go it's own course.順其自然. so for now i jus nid to tolerate them. 2 more mths to go after tis week!!

looking forward to end of e week. heading beach on sat!! hopefulli no ot. i shall scout ard for news tml. haha. heard tat they shifted e dates cos there's no venues. but well. watever. jus pray hard it doens't clash wif my beach dae. else i'll b pretty pissed. hahaha

hmm.got my jap test on e wrong date. is tis week not last week. haiz. took a cab down lo. 16 bucks. ex wor. =(

hmm. todae pretty blur saw 4518 and 4581 as e same. my boss pointed it out to me. muahaha. and somemore i checked it several times. gack. haiz. freaking blur. hahaha.

hmm. bout time i sleep. haha. probably gonna wakie tml to study jap.

was in a pretty good mood now. so more or less bounced back to normal.

kk. nite peps.

ciao~

respect.

hihi!!

it's a hectic weekends. totalli haf no time to study for my jap. was trying to study now. but was dozing off. so guess i'll turn in early and wake up early tml to study. it's gonna b tough. dunno how ppl do part time studying.

todae, one of my collegue tender his resignation. well. been thinking tat all these people tat i've been working wif will not always b working with me, once their contracts end, they will haf to move on to another job or extend their stay in MBS. gonna miss them all. haiz. sad prospect. can't imagine life without some of them. gonna b so damn boring.

hmm. tokin bout respect. i guess i'm gonna get drag into e company politics. guess ppl was trying to target me now. esp when they are trying to get to each other's back. gonna b extra extra careful. haiz. gotta look out for wat i sae now. tired.

i remember e other time, i was tokin to mabel's mom. she told us tat one important aspect of relationship was to respect each other. in terms of emotions, actions and careers. they can disagree with it, but they can nv stop ur career. tat's a very important fact which i believe in it. otherwise, it's gonna b tough road ahead. trust is another important issue. well. it goes hand in hand.

hmm. so tired. got stiff neck todae when i woke up. one of my collegue bought two tube of m&m. he left one wif me so tat i can eat. but well. got stiff neck. so ate a bit. but ya. stiff neck,can't move. todae is pretty sad noon time. when i finish my stuff, i walked into e office and realise everyone's out for lunch and my in-charge da bao back for me to eat. she and my fren went out to da bao. den when they came back. blah blah, den went e both of them went to smoke. good thing another bunch of collegues came back and sat wif me. else it's a boring lunch. haiz..
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k la.. should b headin off to bed. gonna wakie at 5? or earlier to study.

ciao..

huff~

hihi!!

well..work is jus dainty..everything seems to b working jus fine. except tat e day pass too slowly. plus thinkin of someone. gack. haha. it's killing me. humph. hopefulli it don't get worse.

nth much. went for kor kor's weddin. haha. didn't try to kill him, but well, gave him bit of martell on e rock. c. i'm so nice, gif him on e rock. haha. hmm. nice weddin. it's a joyous occassion. makes me think when will i attend e next one. oh ya! e newlyweds were taking photos wif people at my table. so i got no idea how i shifted till i'm standing in e middle. haha. didn't realise until mabel pointed it out.

oh ya! wanted to tell YOU~ tat i think i've grown fatter. if u're reading tat is. lol. wanted to sms u bout it. but kip slipping my mind. haha. anyway. ya. i can feel e fats ard my tummy. zzz. sian.

kk. it's headin to 11. gotta go to bed. tml got work. huff~

nite peps. sorri for such a short paragraph.

adjusting.

hihi!!

well..finalli my hands de-swell a bit. ok..is pretty much. it looks normal now. ok. almost normal. these pics are taken yest. u c my right wrist already out of shape and is damn fat!?!?

took tis pic during work todae..haha..it's so pretty heh.

this was taken last week if i'm not wrong. haiz. miss e time when i can

gaze out into e blue sky and watch those fluffy clouds float pass.

hmm. well, been pretty much at work these few daes. probably been neglecting someone. sorri and thanks for understanding. haf fun tml slacking at home k. haha.

was digging tru my piles of letters i've kept since childhood for my fren's address. there's realli lots of letters. haha. saw a card tat was given on vdae. if i'm not wrong tat'll b my first time receiving vdae stuff. anyway i got a get well soon card plus a box of panadol sent to e front door. haha. well. memories. =)

haiz. been tryin to apply for cpf board. but again. when i refresh e page e whole thing is gone. i'll try tml. anyway e closing date will b end of e mth. so jus remind me yeah. hmm. gotta slp soon. else tml can't wake up. plus nid to bring money out for food and shopping. haha.

kk. go le. nid my beauty sleep. although i haf pages and pages of things to sae, but i'll have to leave it for e next time. hopefulli i'll rem wat i wanna sae. ahaha.

ciao peps.

when e shine fades off, wat do u c?

when e shine fades off, i saw reality and desperation. reality tat i got stuck wif this company. reality tat they might not b concern bout jus one little request of urs. reality tat i still haf 2 mths, 20 few more daes to go till end of contract. desperation to get off e job quickly. desperation to get a new job quickly and desperation to jus get over it.

was praying hard for patience. a thing i've lost since i started working. seems to b endless list of meaningless stuff to do tat seems endless. lack of organisation skills, lack of communications, lack of instructions, lack of transparency. it's a company tat every might wan to join, but soon, as e shines wears off. it's not tat good a company to work in.

perhapes it's my expectation of e job. i set it too high. and i didn't expect myself doing some meaningless job. on e first dae. i could c no future of any career advancement. probably it's temp staff which is y they tends to ignore us. but from e view of things rite now. e future looks meek. nth challenging except c how many note pads u can put into e folder and how many phone calls u can make in e dae. other den tat. hmm. nth much.

well, e week is finalli over. i've worked 4 daes. so 1 week down, 2 mths 3 weeks to go. gambatte ne..i'm tryin to make myself b patience, try to tell myself it's an experience. but when u r in e shoe. things change. but still i nid to take on my own advice. usualli my advice is correct, but my heart wanted to go e opposite way. guess tat's my naughty side toking. haha.

kk. pretty tired. tml cancelled csf tuition. was called back to work tml last min. but too last min. i'm packed wif lessons and jap classes. so too bad!!

kk. R&R a while more. and i'll b knocking off. i'll bounce back in a few daes. hopefulli.

nite peps. hope i don't lost my voice tat soon.

ciao~