been a looonnggg time

hi there..

it's been a long time heh..been feeling down more often then up..jus feels tat e world suddenly drop off and i'm just standing there alone by myself. even though surrounded by ppl...i still feel as though standing on a one person island. trying hard to gain back my balance but feel totally lost now.

wat's going to be my next step?

who will understand way i'm going through?

i'm keeping everyone at arm's length..totally having a emo upheave.

kip telling myself to hang on, be positive, be cheerful, be strong.

it's tough.

where does my life heads now? jus feel like disconnecting with the world and just drop off a while..jus when i though i found my balance, i lost it.