sore throat =(

hiya!!

got sore throat =( wasn't tat bad yest..was startin to get sore throat yest..but i nv tot it'll turn into full fledged sore throat...haiz...think is e mac fries todae..seriously i always tot e fries at mac are beri nice..but..haiz..todae's one was like (~_~) after eatin got a oil after taste (-_-) haiz..sad...den e sore throat got worse..

hmm..think mayb is e heat n e lack of aircon...make me feel fainty n vomity...lack of patience...short tempered...plus e sore throat is so irritating...seriously how nice if i can go back to aussie now..winter...i'll b like too frozen to quarrel..too cold to get heaty...den can eat a lot of tim tam.. =)

anyway..tml gonna b a long long dae...gotta start e dae helpin mom out in e kitchen..to bai zhu xian..she sae wake up as early as possible..6/7am..zzz..den after tat..if i nv remember wrongly..mus go over to csf at noon to help out..stupid zhong di kor kor still sae "come earlier hor" wat e hack...den at nite oso mus go over..full dae...

plus todae my right upper eye lid kip "jumpin" since morn till now wor..my mom sae got ppl lookin for a quarrel wif me..but..hmm..is it suppose to b a bad omen?? fall sick?? choy choy..anyway..like ulcer comin out e feel..lol..hmm..i think not...think is yest eat crab den e shell "keap" my lips..lol..or something..lol..haiz...wat e hack....

hmm...nid to sweep my floor...cannot tahan liao..lol...but no time xia...seriously busy..hmm..plus there's this whole load of clean clothes sittin in my mom's room...zzz...den this irritating little "bumble bee" (not a bee..a big flying unidentifable creature) was flyin ard in my room tis afternoon..pissed me off...lol...i sae i was short tempered didn't i??

plus todae daddy quite stubborn..tell him things dun listen...haiz..den kip makin mom angry..even more pissed...watever...hopefulli get a cold shower den KO till tml morn...haiz...sian..tml long dae...haiz...

HAIZ!! =( think of tml jiu sian diao...LOL!!

kk..ciao~

stinko!!

hihi!!

in e morn..help mama pick rice for ba zhang..in e process i've hang e clothes, cook porridge n watched F4!! lol..tat's y slow movin trafic..lol...hmm..mama sae dun watch..so in e end hurry hurry pick finish den escape!! but before tat settle dad n mom b4 headin up...once up went to fold clothes..zzz...good thing sis is ironing e clothes..den after finish foldin e clothes den escape upstair to cont' watchin e show.. =)

sadly..after dinner..got pulled into cutting mushrooms and garlic...and even more sadly..e stupid mushroom smell got stuck to my fingers...zzz..haiz...den finalli finish at 10..watch tv for an hour den head up to shower...after tat kip my room...damn messy..hmm..den repair my bag!! lol..finalli got it repaired...e zipped came off last yr..before psle..cos i'm still teachin last yr psle batch den e stupid zip fall off..den didn't use it..jus leave it there to rot until jus now i finalli repair it!! yesh!!

got a feel of shoppin!! feel like buyin a corset try try..hmm...wanna go shoppin!! but can't go places where there's a lot of crowd..so gotta go shoppin like some cold timin where no ppl go out...lol..anyway...even tou it feels like 11 to me rite now..it's actualli 1...i noe i gotta slp soon..but..humph..c how ba...

hmm..a bit sleepi...but feeling pretty happi now!! lol...

well..i'm off to chat..catch ya later

nite..ciao~

yo!!

long time no blog le i noe...recently nth much happenin in my life...hmm..did i tell u i got a tuition on my bdae...earned 25 bucks...feels real good bout it..so i stuck tat 25 bucks in my wallet...den inside got another couple of 10 bucks..den e other dae go da bao food..kop daddy's 34 bucks..lol..but sadly i think i pay half of them for e dinner at dallas n hooters...den e other dae shoppin den spend e rest...haiz...sad..there goes my 25 bucks..

anyway...i jus can't understand how come i got so much cash in my wallet...until someone reminds me..lol...hmm..it's real good to earn my first bucks since back in aussie...but it didn't last long enuff...so crazy bout findin a job now...

pretty borin ..nth to do..pretty tired as well..been sleepin late these 2 daes watchin korea - boys over flower..den slept at 230 last nite..woke up 530 tis morn to msg someone...lol...so drowsy...den gotta wakie at 1030 but laze on bed till 11 den haf to get up..bo bian..cos gg out wif daddy...bang ard e room b4 finalli washed up n went down..too sleepi to think of where i'm headin...lol..think i nid more sleep n less dramas...

oh!! btw i onli got 72 for my jap test n 9 for oral..hmm..not satisfied wif e result..but tat's e best i could do at e moment...well..i should start studyin earlier so i guess i'm not realli at my best since i didn't realli put in enuff effort..so haf this kind of result should b ok le ba...

k la..nth to do online..someone's not here..zzz..todae went out wif daddy den go amk eat chicken rice!! freakin full for e whole dae..didn't eat a single thing until 9 plus for dinner...

hmm..anyway..whole body achin...mayb is due to gg out yest?? "exercise" too much le..lol..stiff neck a bit todae as well...oh..might b e popcorns...should not eat tat much..plus nv drink enuff water yest..hmm...todae no appetite...mayb it's e heat....plus e tiredness...pretty tired halfway when i was out yest...lol..should b able to fall rite to slp..but hand itchy go on e com den got stuck wif e drama...lol..dun kill me pls..lol...anyway..i nid to slp early todae to make up for e lost of slping time..but i realise it's gg 12..n i wan to play some game b4 headin to slp..lol...plus daddy was naggin me bout wakin so late todae...which i usualli don't...jus these few daes someone wears me out..lol..kiddin la..datin till mid nite wif F4..lol...nice show seriously..although i onli watched e back =X

kk..i'll go off playin games...will retire soon..hair is still wet...ciao~

调整自己的心态。。

yo!!

how to tiao zheng ur own feelings??

hmm..firstly...you mus not expect ur partner to put in same percentage of effort into e r/s as u did..becos it'll onli cos strain in e r/s...

secondly, something mabel n you noe...hmmm...pointed out to me was tat each of us haf different ways to show their affections, care and concern..so jus becos u do things differently doesn't mean tat u dun't care..jus tat u haf a different way of showin it..also, don't expect him to do/show e same type of affection as you does to him..cos he'll oso haf his own method of affection...understand?? hmm..a bit chim...which actualli reflects e first "rule"

anyway...thirdly..is to conpromise instead of controlling and changin e person..

fourthly..well..i guess it's tat action speaks louder den words..so instead of jus tokin..y not put them into action?? jus sayin n no move is..dotz..lol...of cos..communication is oso important..it's sometime tough to tok bout things tat's realli affectin u..but do try to tok things tru...god-daddy sae something beri true...there's no pt gettin angry n quarrel cos in e end it hurts no one jus everyone..plus when we tok, we mus b careful of our tone, our body lang, our words...cos it might hurt some one...wat he sae ar...hmm..说的人无疑，听的人有心。。plus sometimes ppl will 记仇。。

hmm...fifth..erm..i guess it's tough to digest these 4 stuff...let's no go to e fifth..plus i got a bit blury head now..can't think..lol..plus SS values are all tangled up wif my jap..lol..can't think!! tokin bout jap...tough jap lesson todae..got my exam next mon!! freakin busy tis week..jus hope tat i can finish studyin by wed/thur...haiz..tough...but well..it's gonna b interesting =)

okok...think i better go rest...

ps: prayin hard for u..がんばってね。。

e pressure is back on!!

hihi!!

well..i did sae not to tok bout work rite..but of cos..some ppl nv read my blog so didn't realise i tell them not tok mention bout work..lol...but seriously...thank god to ah yan jie jie..e pressure is back on...e time is gettin lesser as i search for a job...certainly e stuff she sae was true..so now..i'm motivated again to find a job...nid a push now and again...prob i'll turn into a workaholic yeah? isn't tat nice?? but i seriously doubt i'll become tat...i'll take time off sometime..i hope...anyway..was realli prayin hard to get a job soon...but ceb sae june..so hopefulli june come quick!!

hmm..as daes pass..i'm more determined tat my decision is rite..even tou i regretted it..e road in front seems to b shut off...got no idea how and wat's my next step...at first i still c a ray of sunlight out from e dark clouds..but now..i guess..hmm..i'll concentrate on lookin for jobs..i noe opportunity are hard to come by n if there's any den grab it wif both hand...well..rite now..i guess lookin at things at e opposite end..it doesn't looks like there's any jetty..so i'll jus con't on wif my journey ba...

hmm...got back e motivation to look for a job..tat reminds me to tok to ct..where's e student!!!?!? lol..anyway..ah yan jie jie sae go teach tuition center...prob i'll look into it...guess now main focus is my job!! haiz..

kk..i'm off~

hihi!!

well...todae went out wif mama..at first wanna go to e floral thingie at a temper in punggol area...but we sat on 82...den she sae it stops outside e temper...but sadly..i think e bus doesn't stops there n she refuse to go down e bus n walk there..she sae we'll take daddy's car tml so we sat e whole way to punggol end den make a turn...after tat she propose to go home..but sian 1/2...so i decided to lure her to someplace else..lol..den she sae go kovan so i happily go wif her..keke...

when we're at kovan..go walk walk..den bought a top..gack..haiz...hopin to find someone to pick up my bills..but sadly..no one..lol..so bo bian..pay myself..haiz..seriously in nid of jobs..n i seriously heard lectures about findin jobs from almost everyone..esp my parents..who nag almost few times every other dae...so pls..don't touch e topic of jobs anymore...else i'm seriously gg crazy!!

since nowadaes nth to do...i guess i'm back to watchin pokemon...lol..sad case..but watever...hmm..tryin to learn fruit baskets...but it's been couple of months n i'm still at first half of e song..zzz...hmm..now tryin out richard clayderman song - marriage d'amour...hmm..still nid to write e alphabets one..zzz...lol..well..thank god i got time to do all these nonsense..lol...hmm..jus lack of cash..lol..hmm...thinkin of makin a trip down to brash brasah..they got lots of art stuff there..hmm...

kk..i'm off..to writes e alphabets..lol..

ciao~

我的决定

这是我的决定，你可能很难接受，可能因我而受了委屈和伤害。。这一切你可以不接受，可以不告而别。。可是，是因为你了解，所以你尊重我的决定。。

因为这一切是个美好的回忆。。所以会后悔，会伤心，会想你。。可是。。我还是坚决了。。虽然哭了，虽然不舍得。。但是还是要振作，还是要勇敢的往前走。。虽然一切以不存在，虽然留下了遗憾。。但是我曾经拥有，曾经快乐过，那就够了。。

如果时间可以倒流，可能会有不一样的结果。。如果有选择，我会选择从新出发。。因为回不了过去，回不到了原点，而一切以归零。。我就得在新的原点从新出发。。此刻，是否一切以太迟，或是否还有以后。。那就顺其自然吧。。