when e shine fades off, wat do u c?

when e shine fades off, i saw reality and desperation. reality tat i got stuck wif this company. reality tat they might not b concern bout jus one little request of urs. reality tat i still haf 2 mths, 20 few more daes to go till end of contract. desperation to get off e job quickly. desperation to get a new job quickly and desperation to jus get over it.

was praying hard for patience. a thing i've lost since i started working. seems to b endless list of meaningless stuff to do tat seems endless. lack of organisation skills, lack of communications, lack of instructions, lack of transparency. it's a company tat every might wan to join, but soon, as e shines wears off. it's not tat good a company to work in.

perhapes it's my expectation of e job. i set it too high. and i didn't expect myself doing some meaningless job. on e first dae. i could c no future of any career advancement. probably it's temp staff which is y they tends to ignore us. but from e view of things rite now. e future looks meek. nth challenging except c how many note pads u can put into e folder and how many phone calls u can make in e dae. other den tat. hmm. nth much.

well, e week is finalli over. i've worked 4 daes. so 1 week down, 2 mths 3 weeks to go. gambatte ne..i'm tryin to make myself b patience, try to tell myself it's an experience. but when u r in e shoe. things change. but still i nid to take on my own advice. usualli my advice is correct, but my heart wanted to go e opposite way. guess tat's my naughty side toking. haha.

kk. pretty tired. tml cancelled csf tuition. was called back to work tml last min. but too last min. i'm packed wif lessons and jap classes. so too bad!!

kk. R&R a while more. and i'll b knocking off. i'll bounce back in a few daes. hopefulli.

nite peps. hope i don't lost my voice tat soon.

ciao~