lost..

haiz...

things jus goes so wrong todae...so depressed...haiz...

this morn started out ok..but after tat i went for my psycho tut..my teacher call me and several(4 actualli) more ppl out and told us we flunk our assignment/report..and we could redo it and submit it back next week..but at most we could get a pass..she wasn't sure she could gif us more den a passgin grade or not..but seriously..i realli don't feel like redoin it..cos i finalli got past it..and i noe its terrible..but thinkin of e pro side..at least i get to pass it..and mayb could possibly get a credit out of it..on e con side..haiz..i gotta go tru all e work i've done earlier..which realli sux...but i think..on e pro side..now i got a week and i realli don't haf other assignments or datelines..so i could jus focus on e report alone..haiz...such lazy pig i am..

den ar..reach home read some novels..den after tat i started cookin apsta and curry..weird combi i noe..but u noe..halfway tru cookin e curry..my chicken(chicken wing and drum) bleeded...argh..so gross..and i gotta rinse it wif hot water to get rid of e blood...worse thing is..my sis refuse to eat..she always bought chicken and refuse to eat them and i gotta clear them..haiz..

den this morn we got into an arguement over e household chorse...sometimes..its jus so sickening to repeat over and over again e same arguement..she could gif me black face but i can't gif her any black face..haiz..

anyway..when my teacher told me i gotta redo it..i realli dunno wat to feel xia..should i feel relieve? sad? happi? wat should my reaction b..this is e first time i got back my paper and sae redo it..and tat's sux big time..

miss my old room..thxfulli my dad didn't rent it out..else i got a home to go but no place to sleep..haiz..i refuse to share rooms..lol..tat sounds a bit pampered..but i realli hate my parent rentin out my room w/o tellin me b4 hand or something..my sis is ok wif it tou..but for me..no thx...sux big time..

these few daes..my ears are gettin bombarded by rings..internal ringin..and its bad...and my eyelid was jumpin past few daes..aww..sux..i jus noe something bad will happen..

humph...exams are drawin close...can't slack too much..and more..i can't stay forever moodi...haiz..wanna eat mei wu e sweet..e one wif plum inside e mai ya tang..haiz..mayb i should jus import tons of them from sing to here..tou e sweet is a bit too sweet..but none e less..i jus love eatin them..

these few daes..e weather is so weird..damn cold at nite..tonite e wind is so strong tat i could hear e howling of e wind..but seriously..i always tot spring is not tat cold and not tat hot..a bit in e middle..but this...its totalli unexpected...gotta put on my winter clothing xia..sux sux..

seriousli..when i'm down..i think i realli do think about a lot of negative tots...humph...

haiz..1130pm..aust system is jus so different...haiz..should realli pamper myself once after exam xia..oh ya..tokin about pamper...todae..i think i was a bit down..and i went for a mini grocery shoppin..realli mini..jus bought coconut cream and egg..but half way walkin home..i sae this sales on e should i call it cake?? not ckae actualli..more like bread-cake kinda thingie..and a box of 12 bread is $3.50..and i bought 2 box..lol...jus realise tat when ever i feel down..i tends to spend money..lol..bad habit...so b warned..its either spendin money or scoldin people or pullin a long dae.....

so..next time..i realli got to get myself a real high payin job to kip myself happi and pampered...now..tat sounds a bit costly to maintain me...lol..so mayb i should jus get myself a rich guy..but den again..seldom rich guy are nice on e exterior and e interior..but den again..women..should not depends on man..we women..should b financialli independant...not tat dependin on guys are not good..but...jus don't get a habit of dependin on them..well for me tat is...hmm...den again..bein financialli independent doesn't mean get a poor bloke or something..lol..well...as e saein goes..money make e world goes round..lol..now now...i'm a bit materalistic rite..hmm...bad habit tat i ought to change..but i'm not as bad as my younger sis rite mei mei??keke...she still owes me a testimonial..

hmm...should i on my heater???

haiz...its gg to nov soon...and i haf a time freeze?? time out?? haiz...realli...its so..so..stress..i guess...i'm quite numb tonite..

yawn~~

kk..i'm off...soon..

nite...