depress and sad...

hiya!!

though i sae depress..its jus a mood thing..think todae got a mood swing...cos i've done a mistake in my assignments..and my teachers and frens are tokin about it even wif me present!! e good thing is..they do not know who did e mistake...hoff~ but seriously..done quite a lot of damage to my heart...lol..ok..my ego..but i mean...its a trail and error thing...i dunno wat e report wans..so all i can do is try different stuff..so i guess..for me...its a failure a mistake...but oso a chance to to learn rite..haiz..cos i miss out my learning experience in high sch and poly..y do i sae tat..cos...so far..i've nv done anything wif my best effort..so i can't learn anything..i sae b4..last time i hack care..but now..its totalli different..and..humph..i dunno...when u put ur full effort in and it turns out bad...e feeling is terrible..but if it turn out positive..tat's another thing...

anyway...todae is fri..i got a seminar to go on mon..haben prepare my speech...dunno is it correct or not...hoff~ den two report due on next week...humph..stress stress...so much work..so little time...i was thinkin of stayin this summer to do some summer course...but i nid to go back sia tai sui..and oso mus cut off e five color string..den some more got zheng yue oso...den...i oso miss singapore...and all my frens...

huff~ e new bed i haf..its single...and...its real small to sleep in..mayb cos i'm used to sleepin on queen or king size bed..dunno how to differentiate..but...my bear bear was kicked to e floor yest when i woke up..and i oso dunno how i sleep one...i got 2 blanket...i kick one of e blanket off...and evey morn i woke up...its kinda cold..lol...tou e weather was hot..e sun is realli burnin..but e wind is chilly..

yest i took a bath...not bad...but as i scare tat i waste water...i filled up to half tub..and i think its realli cool if i can get it up to a full tub..lol..don't u think so?? hmm...mayb next time i'll fix a bath tub at my home..keke...den can rot there..lol...

other den tat...there's pretty nth much gg on..xcept study study study!!! argh..kip remindin myself of e usual stuff..

right now all i can sae is to wish u good luck coz...i think u realli regret ur doin..and i think society should gif u a second chance...or gif anyone a second chance cos no one is perfect..i should b a social worker...wanted to b one..but...i forgot wat mama/ jiejie sae....i oso wanna b a kindergarden teacher!! but my mama and jie jie sae i too fierce..but e kids are sooo cute and innocent!! sometimes in adult world..its a bit complex xia...but...hehe..i shouldn't worry so much..

hmm..should i con't my stuff?? or should i take another off dae? i know i'm gg to hate myself if i go off now...hmm...mayb should go write my speech..den tml start on my report..

tokin about my report..todae go mit e teacher at 230...wait for ppl to come is ard 235/40 den..went to rupert's myers buildin..and realise office is closed..den we called our teacher..and by e time we went into e office was like 3..den e office ppl come out and sae..he'll b here in 30 min time..and i was like - wth!! of course..i haf to smile and sae ok..but it jus threw off my whole dae schedule...den finalli ard 4 we concluded...den went lib for an hour..check out stuff...den go home..was in a dark mood when i get back..den tok a bit..den watch a bit of anime..tok somemore..watch ant bully...by e time now...i was kinda relac..too relac i think..but tml...when i start facin e materials..i'll start feelin e stress..damn...

kk...better b off and prep my seminar speech...hoff~ headache and sleepi...

i was tellin my sis when i get back to singapore...i'll b asleep by 830 or 930 sing time...now is 2 hour diff..den by e time i'm gg back..should switch to 3 hours cos of time savin...can't wait to go back...

nite guys...i mean..mayb its jus evening there...and yest nana sms me ard 11 plus here time or something...sorri nana..i was in lala land already..but i woke up 715 this morn here time..and reply u..so most prob by 530 u might get my sms..keke...

kk...

i'm kinda long winded rite..not tat i nv notice..but...kk..i stop tokin...lol..

nite..

take care...
cya~

i'll pray hard for u...everything will go jus fine...don't worry too much.. take care ok...